Officially Hate Blogger for iPhone

I officially hate this application. Sure it's a good application for posting blogs and whatnot, but when I was writing one of my blogs earlier and then turned over my iPhone so that it switches keyboard outlines, it erased everything I had written without attempting to even save anything as a draft. Complete bullshit! At least ther was a lesson learned in this little mishap...start paying for apps!

curse my cheapness...

Boredom

My whole family is out, and I'm stuck at home.
It's reading week and I have nothing to read.
Basketball season started and Raptors NBA TV is only broadcasting one game over and over ... and over.
(I think I may have watched the game in completion close to 3 times already)
Currently listening to Gabe Bondoc's "Gentlemen EP"...great cd.
Just received a newsletter from Canada Computers...nothing interesting.
The only thing left to do is shower...sleep...
or go on Facebook.
I think I'll go with the former two.

I miss Michelle...

Change of Location

old room...new room

same attributes, different inhabitant

and it's all to myself.

A state of concern

Recently, I have been wondering what my motives are, why I do or think about certain things. It has come to my attention that I've had several thoughts that I am not proud of, and not once did I stop to think about why I could possibly be having these thoughts...until recently. I realized that these thoughts didn't come by my own will, but rather a combination of something I'm missing in life and possibly something I thought I could live without, but apparently that isn't the case. I've had several ideas of how to fulfill this void spot in my life, but none that could possibly fill it entirely. Although, the thought that I may be kidding myself does exist...but there's no knowing until it happens. If there's anything I need, it will be luck.

Differences

I just want to let you know that

you're still the person I fell in love with,

and now I feel that, sometimes,

I may or may not be the same person

that fell in love with you.

Recovering

Took the day off from school today due to an illness I seem to have contracted on Saturday night. It seemed like I recovered from it on Monday but after a couple days it came back with full force. Symptoms included: stuffy/runny nose, congestion, slight fever, body/muscle aches, and on-and-off dizziness. Sounds like influenza to me, and hopefully not H1N1...otherwise I'm toast! Not likely, though. Anyway, I literally didn't do anything today...nothing productive, at least. Mostly slept (which was awesome, minus the trouble breathing part), watched TV, surfed the web, and ate. At least I'm recovering now, and I'd say I'm close to 65% better than I was yesterday. Pretty impressive from one day of rest, imo.

All the while I've just been missing Michelle, and with all the spare time I had today I really couldn't think of anything (or anyone) else. It's hard not seeing her for weeks at a time, especially because of how close we've become over the years (2.5 on Sunday to be exact). But I accept it because I have a feeling we'll be there for each other when school is finished, when we've started out in the working world, and it will be great...that's just one of the things that keeps me motivated. Regardless, I miss her like crazy! If I wasn't sick, I would visit her at work tomorrow all the way at Humber College. A solid two-hour (one-way) commute on the local transit, just to spend time with her during her lunch hour. She makes me happy enough to make me want to travel for 4 hours just to see her for 1; another thing that keeps me motivated. And the most believable part about it is that...she's worth it.

feeling overmedicated

Woke up today feeling a hangover of the sickness I had a couple of days ago, so I went downstairs and took a couple of DayQuil and some 1000mg Vitamin C tablets. Good news is I'm feeling better! Bad news is I'm feeling a tad overmedicated and it sucks because I wanted to play basketball and workout today. Looks like I still am but without the presence of my workout buddy, Sam. There's some calorie burning to be had!

Today is also Customer Appreciation Day for the YRT/VIVA. Free pens/muffins/hot chocolate/coffee anyone?

Mariana's Trench concert = awesome!

So Michelle and I went to the Mariana's Trench concert on Saturday (October 10), and all the reviews I ever read about their concerts were right down to the T! They are amazing performers and need to become more recognized. On the other hand, I'm nursing some kind of cold/sinus infection that I seem to have contracted the night of the concert or during that same day. Either way, I've been bed ridden and did close to nothing all day except for sleeping, eating, and NOT taking my daily shower. Needless to say, I feel like crap.

Here's my favourite picture from Saturday night. Check out my Facebook to view the rest. Cheers!

love is an understatement

those four letters can't describe entirely how I feel for this woman.

as if no amount of words can do my emotions the justice they deserve.

forget the idea that "if you can't explain it, it doesn't exist"; I love you.

sometimes I feel I don't tell you that enough,

but I'd rather let my actions do the talking.

know what you want before you order

Just a quick tip for those who choose things on impulse: know what you're getting yourself into before you order yourself a dish full of regret with a side of disappointment. I did this today and had to pay with something I value most in this entire world; my relationship. I hated every second I was alive until I decided to force an attempt to reconcile our differences. To be honest, I never want to make that same mistake again as long as I live. I love Michelle too much to withstand putting her through that kind of torture again. At least I got one thing out of all of this: a lesson learned.

Happy Birthday!

Today is my girlfriend's birthday and I'm just thinking about her so much. I really hope she's having a wonderful day at work, and hopefully I can make her day even better when I go and see her tonight. It's amazing how our relationship made it through the things that it did, through times of uncertainty and deceit, and no matter what happens we're always going to be there for each other. After all, that's what love is about, right?

Anyway, I hope you have a wonderful day sweetheart.  

Happy Birthday!  

I love you.

unbelievably tired ... =\

I don't know what's going on but I'm soo tired ... I've never felt this tired ever since I began my change to a healthier lifestyle. Maybe because I really didn't have a good sleep last night. Fell asleep at 1, woke up before 6. I even waited for my alarm to go off just so I could quickly turn it off. Pretty intense, I know, but I couldn't get some things off my mind. So much that it's frustrating. I can no longer continue this ... I'm too tired to do so.