For All the Marbles ...

Patched things up with the girlfriend today. It has been 11 days or longer that we have been fighting and I'm glad it's finally over. It went through a rocky beginning today but we've managed to pull through all the idiocy that one can manage to emit. In the end, I'm just glad that we're working through this, like we should've been from the beginning ... but who am I to complain? We were able to escape from each others' violent grasps with nothing more than bumps and bruises and, thankfully, no broken hearts ... not permanent ones, anyway. Let the healing process begin.

Never Learn

I've done it for years and I still continue to do it.
You give me a little bit of a high and
I hold on to it like my life depends on it.
Hoping one day your side of the bargain
is as full as my hopes for it to happen.

Bitter

Not really myself as of late due to the results of recent developments of both myself and personal relationships, and I've found myself to become quite bitter because of them. Sorry to those that had to witness it first hand, but sometimes I just can't help it and lately it has gotten excruciatingly hard to handle as of late. And I'm not sure I can do it anymore...

It's Over...

All of it ... it's all over.

Everything we did, all the effort we put into it

Is gone.

Recuperation seems bleak.

But that's life...

Road Block

Some new developments in the relationship as of late. I really don't understand why most of these things happen, but bad things always seem to creep up in the most unusual times and places. I really would not like to disclose any personal information at this time, but the girlfriend and I just recently got out of a pretty nasty argument that, in many other relationships, would be a deal breaker ... but not us. There have been some pretty intense events happen over the course of our 31-month adventure, some that have been able to shake us enough to lose hope, but it has become obvious that everything that happened has only made us stronger. With that in mind, the biggest test is yet to come ... and I can't wait to see how we're going to handle it. However it happens, we'll take care of it together and you can take that to the bank.

Off-topic: I never really understood what that meant ... "take that to the bank" ... maybe it has some kind of analogy to the fact that you can expect it to be there when you need it, like money in the bank. Meh, whatevs...I'm too tired to think about it at the moment, especially after today's happenings. Well, have a good night. Later days!

Dare pt.3 - Day 1

So, after challenging me again on Tuesday night to the same dare, Michelle ended up calling me again last night...and after admitting defeat she issued another challenge! Actually, the same challenge! This girl just won't give up, at least, not entirely. It would always be like this:

Michelle: "Hi! I know I'm calling, but I miss you soo much!"
Jordan: "HEY! You called! I win! Yay!"
M: "You don't miss me?"
J: "I do miss you, but I still win!"
M: "You know what? The dare is still ON!"
J: "Fine, talk to you on Friday!"
*hangs up after the usual goodbye routine*
(I love that routine =D)

I have a feeling that a call may be heading my way tonight, and I wouldn't be surprised if it happened either. After all, I'm not the needy one anymore, huh sweetie? lol =P

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In the library doing some DCN455 work and, honestly...there's so much to know. Just got through CSMA/CD and MAC protocols last week, going through the OSI Network layer in detail this week...eugh, so much to do. I'll need to get a crap load of studying done tonight if I'm going to be seeing Michelle tomorrow. Yayy...late night studying...

(note to self: sarcasm is hard to portray through text.)

Dare pt.2 - Day 1

Soo Michelle lost the dare yesterday, and I'm announcing it to the world/whoever reads this blog. After my victory dance and some gloating, she retaliated and convinced me that we are going to revive this dare until Friday ... and I say "bring it on!". So I've been thinking...what should I choose as my reward? Make her perform an embarrassing public act? Or maybe make her pay for all of our dates in 2010? Or take me to a raptors game with awesome tickets? I'm undecided! But sweetie, since I know you're reading this...expect something drastic.

p.s. I still love you, but I won biatch! lol mwah (=

Dare - Day 3 cheap shot

The official beginning of day 3 of the dare between me and Michelle and I already contemplated surprising her at work today for lunch. That would be a really bad idea, considering she would have to take an early lunch, and I would've lost the bet! So that isn't happening anytime soon lulz. My arms and chest are beginning to have some slight aches from yesterday's workout, and it's honestly making me really lazy. Right now I just feel like falling asleep somewhere in the library and not waking up until class starts later. Crap...I just remembered I have a test in that class. To study or not to study...

Random thoughts: Why would Michelle want to impose such a scenario upon our relationship? I mean, it's not exactly at it's best right now...but I guess the time apart is supposed to have some kind of effect on our individuality, though it really hasn't sparked any new things for me except for the fact that I've been able to get a bit more studying done over the past couple of nights. Also, this dare isn't really all that fun or competitive unless I can talk smack about it to her, which is honestly one of the best aspects of our relationship.

I was also able to get something for her that she will love (I hope you're reading this, sweetie), something that she will not be able to find out about until Friday unless she calls, emails or texts me. Cheap shot, I know...but let's see if she can hold out. Now, I won't know if she reads this until I see her on Friday, but it's worth a shot. Who ever said we were supposed to play nicely? As Michelle says, "Don't play with the big dogs unless you can bark." ... and bark, I shall.

Dare - Day 2

Day 2 of the ongoing dare between Michelle and I went quite well. Worked out and played some basketball at the school gym today for roughly 3 hours. Did chest and arms today, and, surprisingly, they don't hurt at the moment. Finished at around 1:30 then went to class, finished the lab when I got home, and then was studying for my NAT150 test tomorrow.
Some random thoughts: Raptors lost. Too bad. I'm really missing Michelle right now, I hate not having her in any part of my day. But I'm determined to win this bet/dare no matter how hard it is going to be. It's only a week anyway, how hard can it be, right? ...I have a feeling I'm going to be eating my words pretty soon.

Dare - Day 1

So Michelle and I have this on-going bet/dare that I can't go from today (since 12 p.m.) until Friday when I see her without calling/emailing/texting/facebooking her. So I said she must do the same thing, and we're going to see how things hold up. Never have we not talked for such a projected period of time, so this is going to be interesting. I got my fingers crossed hoping I get an assignment, labs, or any kind of school work to keep myself occupied.

On a side note, Raptors are looking pretty solid. I think mid-December is when things are really going to begin to mesh, and they're going to end up with a 45-win season. Go Raps!

post-workout day body aches

Wow. This feeling is amazing! After probably a week of being stagnant during reading week not working out and finally doing some full body stuff, it's safe to say that this feeling was missed! On top of that, I spent six whole hours on the bus yesterday (seven if I include my ride home from school), two of them with my special nummie, so I haven't really had much time to rest my body other than the sleep I got last night. But I would gladly do it again because she makes me feel super-awesomely-special inside.

Anyway, here's an update since beginning my workout in September:
September: 175 lbs.
Last Night: 158 lbs.
Gains: 1/2 inch biceps, 1 inch chest, and one hell of a jump shot
Losses: 1 inch waist, 17 lbs.

Thanks to my nummie for supporting me throughout all of it. I love you so much. But I ain't done yet...